It's been a while since I've posted something here. Well, I've been quite busy lately and I know it will become worse soon as the start of the busy season is fast approaching. For those who are unaware of my profession, we auditors, have a so-called busy season. As the term suggests, it the time of the year when we are most busy. It starts around October and ends on April. There. So you see, if I am busy now, imagine my life during the busy season.

Why do I let myself experience such stress?? Ako din hindi ko alam. Hehehe... Not really. I am staying because The Guy promised me that if I play my cards right I will be promoted next year and I will be sent abroad to work there for as long as six months. Tempting enough? Not for me. But what really made me decide to stay another year is the challenge of proving myself to This Guy. When we had our serious talk, he said that he was expecting more from me and he did not see "focus and consistency" in my work.  Maybe he was right. Well, I had 12 freakin' clients during that time compared to the 5 to 7 clients of that person he was comparing me with. Not fair. But then again, the challenge was there to prove that I can do the same or even better. Too proud??? Sabi nga sa akin ni Mike... kaya ayan.. eto ako ngayon busy at bumibinggo sa mga boss ko.

AAAAARGGGHHHH!!!! I need to have direction. I need to stay focused. I need to be organized. I need to start right. I need to start somewhere.. i want to give up badly.