::: almost but not quite... ::: « yami's random thoughts

If my life could be put into words... it's always almost but not quite... i never really asked why until recently.... aaaaaahh!!!! makes the thought of being alone in a quiet place having yosi and/or a beer in one hand and some quiet music in the background like heaven... =)

Performed by Eric Clapton. OST ng Runaway Bride.
All time favorite pampaiyak song. swak!

I thought that you’d be loving me.
I thought you were the one who’d stay forever.
But now forever’s come and gone
And I’m still here alone.

’cause you were only playing,
You were only playing with my heart. (how true.)
I was never waiting,
I was never waiting for the tears to start.

It was you who put the clouds around me.
It was you who made the tears fall down.
It was you who broke my heart in pieces.
It was you, it was you who made my blue eyes blue.

Oh, I never should have trusted you.
I thought that I’d be all you need.
In your eyes I thought I saw my heaven.
And now my heaven’s gone away
And I’m out in the cold.

’cause you had me believing,
You had me believing in a lie. (how true?)
Guess I couldn’t see it,
I guess I couldn’t see it till I saw goodbye.

’cause you were only playing,
You were only playing with my heart.
I was never waiting,
I was never waiting for the tears to start.

It was you who put the clouds around me.It was you.

I Wish I Wasn't...

Para sa'yo 'to...

I’m home alone again
And you’re out, hanging with your friends
So you say, somehow I know it’s not quite that way
It’s getting pretty late and you haven’t checked on me all day
When I called you didn’t answer
Now I’m feeling like you’re ignoring me
And I wish, I could go back
To the day before we met and skip my regret

I wish I wasn’t in love with you
So you couldn’t hurt me
It just ain’t fair the way you treat me
No you don’t deserve me
Wasted my time thinking about you and you ain’t never gonna change
I wish I wasn’t in love with you
So I wouldn’t feel this way

When you touch me my heart melts
And everything you did wrong I forget
So you play me and take advantage
Of the love that I feel for you
Why you wanna hurt me so bad
I believed in you thats why I’m so mad
Now I’m drowning in disappointment, and it’s hard for me to even look at you
I wish I could go back
To the day before we met and skip my regret

Said you care about me, but from what I see
I ain’t feeling that, so I disagree
Gave you all my love and understanding and you treated me like your enemy
So leave me alone, don’t want nothing from you
Just go back where you came from this house is no longer your home
You can not never come no more

I hear you knocking at my door again
I’m wondering should I let you in
I open up the door and see the flowers for me so beautiful in your hands
You start begging me to take you back,I’ve always been a sucker for romance
And before you know it I can see, you’re all over me
Oh no here I go again

I wish I wasn’t in love with you so you couldn’t hurt me

Ouch.

If you have to love, don't.
Especially if the one you're going to love doesn't love you back. Unrequited love must not fill a space in your existence.Unrequited love sucks, hurts and kills. If you find yourself thinking about someone, and his sweetness, although you know he's naturally sweet to all girls, and his sweetness to you doesn't mean anything, then don't think about him. Don't be too assuming that his checking out on you is a sign that he has a thing for you. Don't read between the lines of sweet text messages he sent to you. Don't dwell on the memories that you had with him, because most definitely, he is not dwelling on them, either. Don't fall for him. To fall in love with him will be an awful blow to your vulnerable emotions. Because surprise, surprise, he doesn't reciprocate the feelings. He is just sweet, remember? If you think you're crushing on someone who seems to be having a thing for your friend, and your friend seems to be crushing on the guy too bigtime, take the backseat. Don't squeeze yourself in the picture. Boogie out the scene that is designated for only the two of them. At this point, don't take the risk of falling for the guy in hope that maybe it's not your friend he's attracted with, but you. That won't work.Assuming that someone loves you is the most stupid reason for propelling oneself to love. So don't assume. And if it happens that you really don't, but you have the urge to love the guy anyway, because whoa, the guy is a catch, try your hardest to control the feeling.The worst thing that can happen is finding yourself very heartbroken from seeing your friend and your prospect together. If you are totally crushing on a co-worker, ang you're nothing but his friend whom you take on his work for him, just for his sake, then for the love of yourself, bop yourself until you realize that you have to let go of that co-worker. Don't skip work because you're afraid you're going to see the two of them sitting beside each other. Look at the guy in a different light, say, notice how he doesn't match up to your ideal guy standard anyway, because he dresses so lousily. Something like that. For pete's sake, it's just a crush you say. But dear, more often than not, crush leads to love. Better stop now than endure a thousandfold pain later. Love is the sweetest thing, I know. It's the greatest feeling. That is, if the one you love loves you back. There can't be anything better than that. But if the situation is wherein you're falling for someone who just considers you as a friend,that's a different story. As much as possible, evade from those heart-wrenching situations. Love is hard to control, but try anyway. Give your best shot at falling out of love. You're lucky if you detect the absurdity and the pain of unrequited love right away, because it spares you from going through a lot of hell. All you have to do is simply occupy yourself with other things. Have fun with your life. You will fall soon, and this time, you will not get hurt, because he will reciprocate the feeling. It will not be now, but it will come in due time. Love is all about sacrifice, giving one's self freely, with no strings attached, you say. Hell, I know that. I know love is supposed to work that way. Love is really supposed to hurt, but that's what makes love love. But this is my stand. And I know you respect that.
Love has pained me so much to actually believe that it is better to have not loved at all.

There you were in a crowded room
With someone at least I assumed
How did I know I would fall in love
With you so soon
Just one look in your eyes
And I see the truth
And I try hard to hide that I'm made for you
But I know deep inside things that we could do
Just as long as we're together
But...
[Chorus:]
Who do you tell when you love someone
Hoping that someone's in love with you
Who do you tell when you love someone
I think I might as well tell you

I can't believe that I feel this way
There is so much that I want to say
I wanna touch you, hold you,
feel you, please you
As we're making love all through the night
We would talk to each other
We would laugh and play
We would claim it's forever every night and day
We would share every minute 'til the test of time
In my mind
[Chorus:2x]
Who do you tell when you love someone
Hoping that someone's in love with you
Who do you tell when you love someone
I think I might as well tell you
[Bridge:]
I've hesitated much too many times
And I won't let you slip away from me no
I know you're for me
And me for you
But I don't know what to say or to do
So now that we're together I'm telling you
[Chorus repeat:]
Who do you tell when you love someone
Hoping that someone's in love with you
Who do you tell when you love someone
I think I might as well tell you